Break ups Are The End Or Begginning

I myself think they are begins but I do not get there right away after all their are the stages. Fri st denial I can get this relationship back on track, doesn't work you just derail it even more. Then comes the memories I go through no particular order times were good times but more bad random thoughts just try to think its not my fault which it mostly is or is it.

Have no friends hate to go out staying home makes me happy and why should you go out when there is no where to go you always felt like you was at tag along sure there were good times but not enough. So going through denial stage I can save this relationship but it just derails worse what else is new.

The next is resentment when you try to figure out how he cannot remember anything you did was right I have my memories hell he come to my work and give him money but he denies that maybe that helps him sleep better. The worse though is how every phone call he reminds me that he doesn't care he has is problems you have yours it just reminds you have absolutely no friends in this city especially when people are kinda freaked to be around you.

Well you can guess it is time to cut out take the higher road and join some clubs nothing to weird or maybe if your into that. So beginning it is but remember

Learning To Be A Sister

My sister and I have not always seen eye to eye, mostly because enjoy talking to her, we are alcoholics and drug addicts. Also are mother and father passed away and it makes you really makes you think about family. I always wanted a big sister and lately I feel like I have one. She is sober no drugs and I am also sober but sometimes I indulge in drugs, but I am finding strength in from her sobriety and my boyfriend has been a trigger so I know I must keep my distance. I really enjoy talking to her and I really hope her dreams come true. She has a great support group that are routing for her, I envy that. I still cannot seem to make friends been like whole life, but now I have a big sister that can hopefully encourage me to find friends get out of the house and maybe even get a career. I am so proud of her

 
 
 
 

Shy's Thinking

Face The Truth

How can you look in the
mirror
You have such an ugly
face
Your hair is long and
stringy
Your cheeks are puffed out like
a pig
When you open your mouth it is
for all the food in the world
you inhale
How did you last this long

How can a man be your lover
if he is your jailer
how is it that he can miss you
when he cannot even see you
you are
How is it that I can love someone
who does doesn't even know
who I am
And I am really in love
or
just scared to death

That is why they use use
The only way you can have someone to love is to pay them
Your pathetic and so is your life
Could it be fare to share the same air
As people who look more beautiful then words
The best you can hope for is an early death
Then again you can do everyone a favor
And end it, you would not be missed
The dog would Miss but look at the dog
shes as ugly as you so people say
so leave a note
and let them know you may be ugly
but the dog is beautiful as she was
your only friend